Let me just say this straight.

I am fucked up. Of what? Everything.

1. I lost him.

2. I lost my best friend.

3. I feel empty.

4. I am bored of life.

I am bored and tired of waking up to nothing. It's the same cycle over and over again. Why does it have to be so hard on me? What have I done wrong?

I am jealous of you with her. Don't be with her, that's all I want you to do. Just be with other girl I fucking don't mind, but fucking pleaseee don't be with her. I can't comprehend why you wanna be back with her, since you said you were feeling tortured with your exes. 

You stupid asshole! I missed you. What have I done wrong? What went through us? I admit I am nowhere near perfect; no one does. I don't know what else to say but I'd really want to say this. 

I love you. I miss you. Don't be with her, please, don't be with that bitch. Be with other girl, I don't mind, no, boy I really don't.